Thursday, December 30, 2004

GY no more

I cant believe that GY is almost over. Tonight will be the last time that I'll be going to work for the night shift. On Monday, I'll be back in the 8-5 shift. Back to having tons and tons of calls. Back to having to log tons and tons of cases. Back to the noisy noisy and crowded office. Back to seeing people I also dont want to see (gayahin ko din si Miguel with this one).


I cant help but feel a bit sad that its over. I had a great time this December. Not just a great time...It was definitely a life changing moment for me. I will always be thankful of how things have turned out cuz I wouldnt be this happy right now with my life.


And take note...I've got the pictures to prove it.

Crazy Miguel's GY pics


The December GY peeps

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Eto ang Boypren Ko!



Yes, eto si Miguel! Porma pa lang panalo na! Taob kayong lahat! Ako lang meron ganyang boyfriend! Panis kayo!

Disappointment

Graveyard shift will be over in a week and hell has already started for Migs and I.

The schedule for the month of January is out (although the super says its only a draft...duh!) and Miguel will be in the 1-10 shift, restdays on Mondays and Tuesday. Im in the 6-3 shift, restdays Saturday and Sunday. My boss was right when she said she wanted us to be placed apart.

They really did make sure that we're super apart.Unbelievable the way these kind of people think. They get so paranoid and think that we'd jeopardize our jobs just because we're a couple. I always thought that she would be the type of person who would trust her subordinates especially since she hired us and considered us for the position because of our experiences from our previous employers and would have considered us as professionals already. Unfortunately, she's still treating us like a bunch of highschool kids. Its disappointing. Very very disappointing to have a boss like her.

Friday, December 24, 2004

Its Almost Christmas!

One more day and its Christmas once again! Time flies so fast. I cant believe that its Christmas already and we're about to go back to normal work shift sched. So much has happened this month and going back in the day shift on January scares and excites me at the same time.
From October up until now, life has been good. I pray to God that he continues to bless me all throughout the year until the years that will follow. I've received the best gift ever and all I can do right now is be thankful and truly grateful for what he has been keeping in store for me.

I've got my mom. I've got Miguel. I've got great friends like Jenny, Jen and Mako. I've got great officemates. I am happy.

Thursday, December 23, 2004

The beginning of the fight...

Just when everything seems right, everything outside the box is beginning to work its way inside. Clawing and clamouring. Thugging and pulling us apart.

But Im not going to give up. The fight has just started. I am not going to surrender to people's narrow mindedness. Not for something that I've been waiting for all my life. Never.




Friday, December 17, 2004

I Love You

Two days have passed since that perfect night...

Everything stills feels as intense, everything still feels raw and fresh. You still continue to overwhelm me. Loving you has made me feel liberated and free from fear and hesitations. You have sparked up a sense of confidence in me that I never knew I had. You inspire me to be a better person.

With all this, who can say no to the love that you so willingly give? Who can resist not loving you just as much in return?

I love you very much Miguel...

Trippin'

I recently took a personality test....here are the results.



Enneagram Test Results
Type 1 Perfectionism62%
Type 2Helpfulness74%
Type 3Image Focus58%
Type 4Hypersensitivity22%
Type 5Detachment46%
Type 6Anxiety50%
Type 7Adventurousness38%
Type 8Aggressiveness42%
Type 9Calmness54%
Your main type is 2
Your variant is social
Take Free Enneagram Personality Test


I was so bored that I even checked what kind of Personality Disorder I have...


Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.

Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.

Individuals with these disorders often appear odd or peculiar


I rated highest in Schizoid/Schizotypal Personality disorder...I suddenly wondered if I do have the tendencies...hehe.


Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Today is the day...

December 14, 2004

Timing is perfect.

I consider today to be one of the most special days of my life. I cant believe that so many important and beautiful things have happened today. Lifelong dreams have finally been fulfilled. Wise decisions have been made. The weaving of beautiful memories with a very beautiful person has finally started its course.

Today, a wonderful chapter of my life has started to unfold and I dip my pen in the ink called life and begin to write words that will fill up the blank pages of my book, hungry for stories and memories.

I love you. Let us begin this story hand in hand.

Monday, December 13, 2004

Slowly But Surely...Nice and Easy

That's how it has been between you and me since that fateful day.
Timing is perfect. Speed definitely tolerable. Feelings definitely sinking in and taking the right track. I have always been fearful of new things, new people and new experiences. Familiarity seems to be my source of comfort. But up until now, even if you've just come in, everything seems to just fit. The ride that I'm taking now is one smooth drive which allows me to forget about my qualms and be comfortable with everything that has been happening. I'm still taking my time. Will not rush but will definitely enjoy every moment that we spend together as we get to know each other more and more.

Sunday, December 12, 2004

Straight but happy and gay!



I had a blast today! I attended my first ever Gay Pride March with Mako! And the funny thing is, Im as straight as a ruler! Jen and I were invited by Mako to attend it. Who could say no? Its an honor to be invited in such an event! I didnt have much sleep but I could feel my adrenalin pumping from the time Mako made me do the letterings for the poster up to the time that we were watching the program. Didn't feel sleepy at all because it was so much fun to just watch and experience it. Thank you so much Mako for inviting us and letting us participate in such an important event in your life. Kung touched ka, mas touched ako!


Love Song by 311

Just remembered that time you were singing this song. Wala lang...

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

How ever far away
I will always love you
How ever long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you

I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

How ever far away
I will always love you
How ever long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you

I will always love you


Thursday, December 09, 2004

Dear Bloggy 3

Again. Let me do this, journal entry style.

Its 12:44 am and Miguel is sleeping. Im trying to type quietly cuz I dont want him to wake up. The poor guy is soo exhausted and I hope he can sleep for a long time. He calls it "power nap". So far, his "power napping" is successful. Im praying that no one calls up so he can soundly sleep.

I like watching Miguel sleep. I dont know why. I just like it. Oh well...

Im at the office right now. I've been in the GY shift for almost two weeks already and so far, its been great. Its like being on vacation cuz we barely get any calls. Now if I can only do this my whole life... hmmm. Unfortunately, that would mean giving up my social life forever. Now that I cannot do. Thank God Im on this shift with Miguel. He wasnt supposed to be on GY. When I got picked to be on graveyard, he volunteered so he could take my place. Unfortunately, I was to dumb to understand the gesture and agreed to be GY with him instead of letting him take my place. Oh well, at least my stupidity got us somewhere. We get to spend loads of time together.

He's up now. Power nap over. Cant write anymore for now.

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

He's My Hero

Again...you overwhelmed me.

What can I say? You have a knack at this I guess. You constantly make me feel like this and I like it. Thank you.

Monday, December 06, 2004

Thank You

He caresses every page with his soft hands and devours every word that I write. I paint this blank palette with the colors of my life and he sees every hue with eyes that understand. I let out my voice and he hears every note of my life.

Thank you.