Bagong Taon na, bagong buhay na nga ba?

Isang tulog na lang, taong 2006 na.

Hindi ako makapaniwalang dumaan na ang 12 buwan, 366 na araw, 8784 na oras ng aking buhay(ang galing, nacompute ko kung ilang oras meron sa isang taon!)! Tapos na ang 2005 at sadyang napakaraming bagay ang nangyari sa aking buhay ngayong taon. Eto ang ilan sa mga mahahalagang bagay na nais kong sariwaan sa pagsasara ng taon...


1. Hyenas

Napakasaya ko dahil ngayong taong ito, nagkaroon ako ng pagkakataon na makasama muli ang aking mga kaibigan noong kolehiyo. May bonus pa dahil naging kaibigan din nila ang aking bisfreni. Hindi man naging madalas ang aming pagkikita, sadya namang ang bawat paglabas, panonood ng sine, pagsakay sa sasakyan ni Mako, panlalait sa isat isa ay sadyang hindi ko kailanman makakalimutan.



2. Miguelito

Halata naman siguro sa blog na ito kung sino ang taong tinutukoy ko. Mangilanngilan na ring mga entries ang naisulat ko ukol sa kanya. Siya ang pinakamamahal ko. Ang magiging katuwang ko sa buhay, kaibigan at nawa'y maging ama ng aming magiging mga anak. Hindi ko kailanman makakalimutan ang taong nagdaan sapagkat naging tunay na masaya, makabuluhan at makulay ito dahil sa kanya.



3. Bada Van

Itong taon na ito, nasubukan ang tapang ko sa pagharap sa isang tunay na balakid. Itong taon na ito nawalan ng trabaho ang aking mama. Noong una kong malaman na tinanggal na sya sa pinatatrabahuhan nya ng halos sampung taon, akala ko ay guguho na ang aking mundo. Hindi ko alam kung papaano ko susuportahan ang aming pangaraw araw na gastusin at pangtustos. Awa ng Diyos, mukang nakakaraos pa rin naman. Nakabili ang nanay ko ng isang van na ginagamit namin bilang shuttle, pampasaherong sasakyan na sinasakyan ng mga nagoopisina sa Makati at Ortigas. Tama lang ang kinikita nito upang pambayad upa at pangkain (at in fairness, nagkaroon na rin kami ng sarili naming sasakyan, sa wakas). Resilience at its finest. One of the few times that I really experienced real life challenges.



4. Paglabas ng tunay na kulat atbp

Note: Di pwede lagyan ng retrato. Mahahalata kung sino e.

Ngayong taong ito, marami akong mga kakilala na sadyang lumabas ang tunay na kulay. Ang mga dating inakalang mababait at tunay na tao...hindi pala. Palaging kaakibat ng paglipas ng panahon at magaganda at mga masasama ring mga pangyayari. Isa na siguro ito sa mga negatibong natutunan ko ngayong taon na ito. Sadyang madamig tao sa mundo ang mas pinahahalagahan ang kanilang mga sarili kaysa sa kapakanan ng kaibigan. Nakakapanghinayang ngunit sadyang bahagi ito ng buhay.



5. Pagtatapat at Kasalan

Ito na ata ang pinakakapanapanabik na pangyayari na naganap ngayong 2005! Ang matinding proposal ni Mr Miguel Claro. Hanggang ngayon, hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala na ang isang Mitch Villegas ay makakaranas ng totoo at hardcore proposal (with matching engagement ring na nakalagay sa panna cotta!). Sa totoo lang, never in my wildest dream did I ever think that this could happen to me. Hindi naman sa ang tingin ko sa sarili ko ay hindi ako espesyal. Sa mga nakakakilala sa akin, alam kong maiintihan ninyo ako. Simple lang naman kasi ako, I love and hope to be loved back. Kung humantong man sa kasal, so be it. Pero hindi kailanman ako naging tipo ng tao na nagimagine kung paano ba magpopropose sa akin ang aking boypren. Hindi ko rin man inisip kung paano ako ikakasal. Pero eto ako ngayon, tinatanong ni Miguel kung nais ko ba syang pakasalan, hawak ang singsing, nanginginig pa nga sa kaba. "Will you marry me, Maria Michelle Villegas?". Hanggang ngayon, umaalingawngaw pa rin sa isip at puso ko ang boses nya nung tanungin nya ako. I felt so happy. Oo at wala ng iba pa ang unang pumasok sa isip ko. "Yes! Yes" naman kaagad ang sinagot ko! May kasama pang iyak yan.

Holiday Rush

The holiday rush is finally over! Finally!

Pag panahon talaga ng kapaskuhan, lahat nagrurush! Nagrurush ubusin ang kanilang mga pera. Sa kasawiang palad, kasama ako sa mga taong ito. As of today, 12/27/05, I am officially broke. Wala na ako, ni singkong duling.

Pero kahit papaano, kahit na naubos na ang aking bonus, sweldo at iba pang nakulimbat na pera mula sa pera ng aking inay, masaya na rin ako dahil marami rami rin akong napamili para sa aking sarili at para sa aking mahal sa buhay. Nagpapasalamat na rin ako dahil kahit naghihirap na ang buhay, nagagawa pa rin namin ang mga simpleng bagay tulad ng pagsho-shopping at pamamasyal kasama ang pamilya.

At dahil holiday rush, rush din ang pagsusulat ko. In a few seconds, maaaring maghang ang aking engot na computer dahil hindi kaya ng fan ng computer ko ang init ng processor. Sayang, hindi ako nakabili ng bagong fan para sa PC. Ganyan kasi pag holiday rush, sa pagmamadali mo, marami ka pa ring nakakalimutang bilhin.

Good News Galore!

I’m soo happy! Full to the brim with good news!

Here we go…

1. I’m Engaged!

Oh yes, he proposed! My Bibi proposed and asked me to marry him last week, December 12. With the ring and the “Will you marry me line” pa! Totoo na talaga to! I can’t believe it! I’m so overwhelmed and cannot believe that I’d be someone that someone would actually proposed to. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think that something like this could happen to me. Not everyone girl gets the chance to experience something this overwhelming which makes me appreciate it so much more. I can’t wait to make kwento about all this in detail (wait for the next post!)

2. I have a landline! At last!

Yes, another good news! After waiting for days, months, years…I finally have a landline na! And take note, PLDT line, not the old crappy PT&T line that we used to have a few years back. I finally have internet!

3. I can blog blog blog blog!

Yes! Blogging! Buhay na naman ako!

I have soo much kwento! Hintayin niyo lang! Im back in the ball game! Magsasawa kayo sa blog ko, promise!

Oh my gosh!

we're getting married, we're really getting married! =)

ang hirap paniwalaan pero its really going to happen.

im very very excited. i can finally be with my mips forever and ever and ever. until we're old and gray and pruney.

marriage, im sure isnt going to be easy, but im sure with mips at my side, things will turn out great. i can just imagine him spoiling our children to death while i end up as the bad guy all the time cuz im going to be as strict as a lola. teehee.

happy happy mits.

Rush

Tatlumpung minuto lamang ang oras na natitira para makapagsulat ako dito.

Sa kakaramput na panahong naibigay sakin...ano nga ba ang pwedeng maisulat dito.

Ah alam ko na!

1. Ako ay kasalukuyang nakakaramdam ng panibugho. Kadiri.

2. Nanlalata ako. Nananakit ang aking mga kasukasuan. Tinatamad ako.

3. Ayokong pumasok sa opisina.

4. Hindi na ako muling magsusuot ng syort pants. Pinahamak lamang ako ng pagnanais kong maging kakaiba.

5. Isang araw na lang, wala na ulit pasok. Gusto ko ng matulog.

6. Kasama ko si Miguel ngayon. Kinikilig kaya siya dahil sa nakuha niyang mensahe mula sa isang dating "kaibigan". Hmmm. Panibugho to the highest level.

7. Sarado na ang mga katabing establisyemento ng Netopia dito sa Farmers. Kelangan ng mag pak-ap.

8. Babay.

Apaw

Hindi ko mapigil. Bumubulusok at nagpupumiglas ang mga salitang kay tagal kong ikinulong sa isip na kay tagal ko ding pinatay...pinatahimik. May muling kumiliti sa aking nakahandusay na diwa at inudyok akong magsulat ng kung ano, di ko ata mawari.

On second thought...

Alam ko na kung ano...

Ang walang kamatayan, ang walang kupas...

Lab.

To Batangas and Back Again

Whew, what a long day! Kagagaling ko lang all the way from Batangas. Balikan! Rush rush kaya Im dead tired. But since this is my last day of VL, kelangan i- maximize ang araw, must find time to blog!

Yes, today is officially the last day of my oh soo exciting 3 day leave. Unfortunately, dahil sa kakulangan sa pananalapi, I did nothing. I just stayed at home and did nothing. Im not complaining though, doing nothing is better than being at work. I'd rather lie down the whole day and stare at my room's ceiling than be at work.

Well, it wasnt really that boring. I actually enjoyed it because Miguel and I spent a lot of time together. After ten trillion years, we were finally able to watch a movie(yes, even movies have become a luxury in my life and the chance that I get of being able to watch is considered a treat) - watched The Legend of Zorro. The movie was typical but still entertaining. We went crazy playing Daytona at the arcades too! I thought I was never going to beat Miguel but I finally did yesterday! I am the racing goddess! (Wag ka kumontra Miguelito!). We were also able to make pasyal in Tiendesitas last night. Tiangges make me go crazy!! Too bad I have no money, so I just feel crazy but still end up buying nothing. Hehehe. And to culminate the week, Miguel, my mother and I went to Batangas to visit my father's grave for Undas. I dont have time to go on November 1 cuz I have work on that day so I could only go there today. My lola and tita met Miguel (they met him before but he was still courting me that time) and Im soo happy cuz I could feel that they liked him. My tita was even egging us to actually settle down already if we both know and feel that its really "us" na. I did not expect to hear this from the people who always thought of me and see me as a child. Suddenly, its like they've finally realized that I am grown up and they're excited at the fact that I should be getting married already. I felt very happy that they feel this way. I also felt happy at the fact that my mother also wants to see me married already. Poor Miguel, he must have felt so pressured at the fact that my whole family seems to want me to be married to him already. But then, on our way back to Manila, while eating lunch at Jollibee (yes, my dear friends, in Jollibee! Unique!), he actually asked me if I want to get married already next year. Of course I said, YES! =) This isnt the first time that he asked me if I wanted to marry him but today, it felt soo real. The very first time he and I were together, everything felt right. I knew that he was the one I wanted to be with forever. I can't imagine living without him. I know that I am going to be happy as long I am with him. We both have our hurdles to overcome but going through them together makes all the difference.

Happy happy Mits. Nice feeling -- nice to blog about all this now.

Thoughts on Amazing Race 8

I finally found the time to watch Amazing Race 8 Family Edition. And I must say, having four people instead of the usual two has made the dynamics of the game much more interesting and even more challenging. Seeing couples argue and squabble before now seems corny after I've seen mothers panicking like crazy over cars losing gas and little kids actually trying to help out their parents carry supposedly wounded civil war soldiers to their bunks. Even if I've seen 8 seasons of the reality show, the new twist of having 4 family members in one team just makes it just as fresh as the first season.

Here are some of my favorite scenes from the 2nd pitstop of Amazing Race 8:

Gaghan Family

This is a picture of the family that brought their two kids as part of the team. In fairness, the kids didnt seem like extra baggage. There was even a time when the kid was actually suggesting to the father that they ask around for directions when they couldnt find the clue box at the Reflecting Pool which ended up to be the wrong pool anyways.

Rogers Family

This is the family that ended up losing in the 2nd leg of the race. The dad was such an ass. He was blaming his son all the time. It was actually his fault cuz he make them take the 30East when they should've taken the 30West. Oh well, that's why they lost.

Bransen Family

This team rocks! Its made up of the dad and his three daughters. The dad has a hard time keeping up with his 3 daughters but they still made it!

I have soo much more to say but time is up! (Once again, Im in an internet shop). Til the next episode then!

Mahirap Maging Babae

Unbelievable.

After a gazillion years, nakasulat din akong at last. Ang nakakatawa nga lang, nothing much has happened since my last post. Now thats really pathetic.

Wala pa rin akong linya ng telepono.

Nasa graveyard shift pa din ako at wala ng nakikita pang tao.

And here I am again in trusty old Netopia with so much to say but sooo little time.

Mahirap to. Kelangan talaga isulat ko na lahat sa PC ko ang gusto kong ilathala sa blog ko tapos the moment I go online, cut and paste to death na lang. Tama...eto na nga lang ang gagawin ko.

I dont want to cram so many thoughts in just this entry. I'll end up saying nothing, thats for sure.

Basta isa lang masasabi ko.

Mahirap maging babae. Yun lang.

Paalam. Hanggang sa muli.

Pahiya, Inaantok, Cowboys, ATBP...

Sabi ko sa huli kong post, sinulat at tinaga ko pa nga sa bato na ang magiging kasunod na post ko ay isusulat ko mula sa aking bahay pero sa ngayon, i take it all back. Once again, I am blogging straight from my only hope, Netopia. Tinanong ni Mako kung ano ang nangyari sa aking plano na pumila sa PLDT upang magpakabit ng telepono...well, hindi ako pumila, wala pa rin akong telepono sa bahay at ang pinakamalala sa lahat, kasalukuyang sira ang aking computer. What else could be worst than this? Kahabag habag na Mits.

Pero hindi pa rin ako nawawalan ng pag-asa. Mapapagawa ko rin ang PC ko. Malaon ay magkakaroon ulit ako ng internet sa bahay, promise ko yan sa sarili ko.

Enough with the rantings. I've got plenty of time now so I can write lotsa stuff. Sa sobrang dami kong gustong sabihin, ililista ko na lang siguro para mas organisado at sigurado pang masusulat ko lahat talaga.

1. Graveyard Shift

Ako na ata ang pinakamasayang CSO sa balat ng lupa (well, aside from Jenny, of course! ). Kasalukuyan akong nasa graveyard shift and nothing could be better than this. Kung dati, pakiramdam namin ay parang mamamatay kami sa oras na papasok na kami ng opisina, ngayon naman ay parang nagbabakasyon lang kami. Parang hindi sa trabaho ang punta ko. Halos walang tawag, malayo sa intriga sa opisina, hindi ko nakikita ang boss ko and best of all, nakakapaglaro ako ng DIABLO II buong gabi! Kung araw araw ba naman ay ganito ang gagawin ko sa opisina, sino pa ang gustong bumalik sa dayshift? Loko loko lang ang gugustuhin pang sumagot ng libo libong tawag pag umaga! I'll chose the graveyard shift anytime!

2. Cowboy Mako

2 or 3 days ago, I witnessed my friend at her VERY best. What I saw could not be topped by anything on this planet! etong si friend ko, abat biruin mo ba namang nakipagkita sa amin na naka COWBOY hat! yes, COWBOY hat po. dito sa pinas, oo, uso na yung mga groovy clothes. ok na ok maging iba pero hindi pa masyadong madaling tanggapin ang mga hats, lalo na kung cowboy hat...at lalo na kapag kaibigan mong bagong parebond ang naka cowboy hat, grabe talaga! Sayang lang at wala akong way para mag upload ng pic now para mapakita ito. abangan niyo na lang siguro sa blog ni jenny (http://ratsky.blogspot.com), sya ang magpo-post ng pics ni binibining mako.

3. Missing my friends

I have not seen my friends in a very very long time. I just saw Mako now but only for an hour and for the very last time pa. Babalik na naman sya sa Japan para mambabae. Kunwari lang yang nag-aaral. Sa totoo lang, nambabae lang yan. Isusumbong kita sa nanay mo. Tandaan mo, I have her cellphone number. Hehe. Pero sa totoo lang, sobrang bigat ng feeling ko kanina nung nagpaalam ako sa kanya. I know Im not the senti type at marahil baka kilabutan at masuka sya pag nabasa niya to pero for real, I really felt sad. It sucks that she's leaving. Ang saya saya kasi pag magkakasama kaming mga hyena girls (jenny, jen, mako ang yours truly). Walang humpay na tawanan, laitan, gaguhan pero take note, pag nagkwentuhan naman, may sense din naman. I feel open with them. I get to say anything and I dont feel awkward or weird cuz I know these are the people who know who I really am and understand me.

I also miss my highschool friends. I have not seen them in a very very long time. Ang daming bagong kwento and gusto ko malaman kung anu-ano na ang nangyayari sa kanila.

4. Loving Miguel more and more

Miguel and I recently celebrated our 8th month "anniv" as a couple. At sa walong buwan na pagsasama namin, Im still amazed at how things are going so well for both of us. Hindi ako makapaniwala na makakahanap ako ng isang tao na tulad nya. Lagi akong masaya kapag kasama ko sya. Magkaroon man kami ng di pagkakaintindihan, madali naming naaayos ang lahat. Loving him is effortless.

5. On blogging

I MISS BLOGGING SOOOO MUCH!

Malala na talaga...

I can officially say na wala na talaga ako sa sirkulasyon...

HINDI KO MATANDAAN ANG USERNAME AND PASSWORD ko for my blog!

Watta loser!!!

Im desperate to have internet at home! First thing on Tuesday, Im lining up at PLDT and Im applying for a telephone line. Itaga niyo yan sa bato.

Im through with ranting about my internet problems! The moment I blog again, it'll be posted straight from home!

- - oOo- -

Im counting the moment...ilang tulog na lang August na! Im soo excited to be back in the graveyard shift. I can imagine it all right now, an average of 20 calls in just one day...oh how byooootifooool... Biruin nyo ba naman kasi, Im averaging at 100 calls in one day, take note, good day yan. Pag bakbakan, minsan 120 calls pa. Im sick and tired of talking to irate callers. Sawa na ako kakakinig sa paulit ulit na reklamo ng mga tao. Napepeste na ako sa kakaisip ng rason para ipaliwanag sa mga aplikante kung baket wala pang resulta ang mga bwisit nilang credit card application after submitting it 1 month ago. A person can only take so much. I sometimes wonder why callers have the nerve of getting irate and screaming at Customer Service Officers. I would never do such a thing cuz Im aware of the fact na HINDI ROBOT ang kausap ko, kundi TAO! I know people might think that Im just saying this cuz Im in the business of Customer Service pero hindi pa rin e. Im not the type of person who would go the extent of making a big fuss about my concerns na magwawala at magsisisigaw sa kausap ko sa kabilang linya. I just think its unethical and its just wrong. You can always talk to people in a calm manner. Hindi nakukuha sa whining at pagsigaw. Sana may cardholder na makabasa nito at sana matauhan sila na hindi madali ang trabaho sa Customer Service. Its takes patience and dedication and if the customers cant see and appreciate what you do for them, then they're just plain stupid.

---oOo---

Miss ko na ang mga kaibigan. Oo, ako ito, si Mitch Villegas po ito, ako, na mahilig mangi-ndian at magtago sa mga kaibigan. I miss hanging out with my highschool friends, I miss hanging out with the hyenas, I miss hanging out with Jenny. My work is taking a toll on me already. Its soo stressful that after I get off from work, all I want to do is sleep. Im too tired to do anything after. When my rest day comes, all I want to do is sleep some more. I need a change pretty soon. Things are getting really ugly.

---oOo---

And to end this, I just want to say to the world that tomorrow, 7/24/05, I am finally going to start reading my Harry Potter andthe Half Blood Prince book!

I finally fnished reading Tears of the Giraffe, I finally watched the complete season of CSI 5 and Smallville 4!

FINALLY!!!!

Whew! Busy sobra! (nerd/geek busy)

Random Tots Part 2

Here I am again, typing away in an internet cafe. Racking my brains out for things to say. Cramming cuz I have soo much to tell but soo little time.

I miss having internet at home and at the office. Eversince our access was taken away, I felt lifeless. Yeah, I know it sounds really weird and geeky but its really how I feel.

Nways, since Im pressed for time, here are my random TOTs and kwentos:

Random Tot #1
Just left the office. Work really sucks. The more time I spend at the office, the more hopeless I feel about the work that Im in. I dont want to be stuck answering calls forever. It feels meaningless and really uninspiring. Totoo talaga na if pera lang ang habol mo sa trabaho mo, mawawalan ka talaga ng gana. Im not saying Im being paid really really well but the reason why Im staying is mainly because of the financial benefits that it offers. Goodluck na lang saken kung makaalis ako kaagad. With all the credit cards that I have to pay, it feels like Im gonna be stuck in my current job forever. That sucks.

Random Tot #2
Kaguluhan sa Pinas, na naman. Kausap ko si Mako ngayon, she's my friend who's currently in Japan (dun sya nambababae, hehe, peace friend!) and she's sooo worried about home. I told her not to worry cuz everything is ok. She's still worried. May threshold daw ang Pinas. I, on the other hand, always feel that the Philippines has got to be the most resilient country in the world. Paulit ulit man madapa, makakatayo pa rin. Nakakasawa nga lang minsan dahil ang pareho lang palagi ang dahilan kung baket nagkakagulo ang gobyerno. Agawan ng kapangyarihan. Lagi na lang naglalaban ang oposisyon at ang makagobyerno. Pag nakuha ng kabilang panig, pilit aagawin na naman ng kabila. Kawawa naman tayong mga mamayang nasa gitna, ipit na ipit na. Tsk tsk tsk.


Random Tot #3
Minsan ba'y pumasok sa utak mo na gusto mo ng mag-asawa? Gusto mo ng magka-baby? Madalas kasi yan mapadaan sa isip ko ngayon. Hindi ako nagpaparinig sa aking boypren. Im simply expressing what I've been feeling lately. Im not saying I want to get married right now. Its just that sometimes, I feel like I've done everything already and I want to move on to the next stage of my life. Haay, its hard when you get old. You start thinking of these adult stuff. Hehehe.

Random Tot #4
Sana malaki ang increase ko sa sweldo para makabili ako ng kung ano-ano. (Note: This is not a random thought. This is permanent stuck in my head, hehehe)

Random Tot #5
Kelan kaya ako pwede magabsent? Gusto ko magabsent dahil gusto ko magapply ng landline para magkainternet na ulit kami sa bahay. I miss blogging soooooooo much!

Random Tot #6
Wala na akong maisip. Naiinip na si Miguel. Ang tagal tagal ko kasi. Wala na syang mapuntahan website, ako naman ang dami pang gustong sabihin pero dahil gabi na at kelangan ng umuwi, fine, goodbye blog. Till we meet again.

People, read on lang. I miss reading your comments. I promise,once I have more internet time, dadaan ako sa mga blog nyo!

At ako'y nagbalik!

Dalawang buwan! Dalawang buwan akong hindi nakapag internet. Isa akong taong bundok. Daig ko pa ang nakatira sa kuweba. Tsk tsk.

Sa bagay, wala rin naman akong masyadong maisusulat na kaaya aya. Same old, same old. Ang trabaho ay trabaho pa din. Inuulan kami ng sangkaterbang tawag ng mga aplikante ng Shopmore. Nakakapagod. Nakakasawa. Kung meron lang internet, hindi lang ito siguro ang masusulat ko. Marami pa sigurong pagrereklamo at pagmumukmok kesa dito.

Ang maganda lang sigurong pwede kong maisulat ko ay tungkol kay Miguelito kong payatot na hindi gaanong payatot ngayon. Oo, mataba na sya (refer to old pics, hindi na ganyan yan kapayat, hehe, tinira sa blog, bad gf)! Ang masakit nga lang, pati ako tumataba na ulit. Sira ang diet. Oh well, worth it naman. Masarap naman kumain e. At masarap makitang tumataba si Miguelito, hehehe.

Recently nga pala, nagpunta kami sa Puerto Azul for our company outing. As always, I was not able to swim. Stupid time of the month. Two years in a row na lang, sinasabayan niya ang outing namin. Hindi tuloy ako nakakapagswimming.

Eto, patikim. Ilang mga pics sa resort.



Pagkatapos ng Puerto Azul, nagpunta pa kami sa isang resort. Hindi ko na masyadong ikwekwento ang detalye kasi resort from hell ata yung napuntahan namin ng mga kaopisina ko. Buti na lang masasaya kasama ang mga kasama ko kaya bawi bawi lang.

In the end, the past 2 months have been pretty okay despite the few downsides (work in particular). I've had my share of summer escapades. I've spent sooo many wonderful times hanging out with my friends and especially with Miguel. Nawa'y sa susunod na pagsusulat ko rito, madami ulit akong makwento...

Bagong kwento at may kasama pang reklamo...

Sa wakas, muli ko na naman nahawakan ang teklado ng computer at nagsusulat na muli sa aking pinakamamahal na blog!

Kasalanan lahat to ng bwisit na IT people ng BDO. Swapang kayo. Walang masama sa pagbo-blog! Baket kailangan ninyong iblock ito?! Nagagawa naman namin ang trabaho namin. Bandwidth ba kamo? Pusta ko kayo mismo ang kumakain ng bandwidth dahil sigurado akong panay ang online gaming ninyo sa opisina! Nagpadala pa ng listahan ang mga magaling ng mga empleyadong may pinakamaraming bawal na website na pinuntahan. Biruin mong nangunguna ako! Nakakatawa, bawal daw. Kung bawal, sana ay hindi na lang kami binigyan ng internet access. Mga tanga talaga.

Ayan, nailabas ko na ang galit ko sa IT people ng pinapasukan ko. Bwisit kasi sila.

Andito ako sa netopia sa cubao. Sa sobrang takam ko sa pagbo-blog, naginternet cafe na ako. Sobrang tagal ko na kasi hindi nakikita ang blog ko. Hindi ko na alam kung ano ang bago. Marami rami na rin ang dumaan. Salamat sa pagbisita at pasensya kung medyo tahimik dito ngayon. Sa oras na magkaroon na ulit ako ng internet sa bahay, araw araw na ulit magkakaroon ng bago dito, pangako.

Sa susunod, marami na ulit akong kwento. Sa ngayon, tigil na muna. Tumatakbo ang oras. Mahal ang pero ora dito. Hehe.

Second Pitstop of the Amazing Race

They did it again! Rob and Amber have used their wits and cunningly made their way into the top spot for the 2nd pit stop of the Amazing Race at Santiago, Chile. It seems like they've really been trained by Survivor to be competitive cuz they've definitely outplayed, outsmart and outwitted all the other teams and had a very big time lead. They've done everything and when I say everything,I mean everything. They paid some dude to not tell the other teams the schedule of the buses, they paid the bus driver not to open the 2nd door of the bus so that the other teams would not be able to go down right away, they found a strategic way to stack all 180 books so that they could deliver it to the library of congress in just one trip. They may have been bad but I must admit, they're really cunning and competitive and this is definitely the reason why they won the million in Survivor All Stars and now they're leading the pack in the Amazing Race.

I'm also glad that Alex and Lynn, the adorable gay couple, are still in it. As always, they were as gay as ever.



I cant wait for next week. Im sure its gonna be as exciting as ever. My bets are still in and I hope they'll still be in it next week.

*Pics courtesy of CBS Amazing Race 7 site

Here are a few of my favorite things...la la la

My Favorite...

1.color: black and green

2.flower: sunflowers and daisies

3.perfume: im not into perfumes but i like how cool water smells (guess who smells like it! =))

4.author: tolkien, coehlo, rowling, l.m. montgomery, l.snicket, bob ong (he's funny!)

5.book: veronika decides to die, by the river piedra..., LOTR and other tolkien books, potter series, series of unfortunate events

6.condiment: patis

7.shoes: love wearing sandals/flip flops, i love my chucks

8.local channel: kapuso at kabarkada

9.beauty product: lip gloss, cheek tint and pressed powder are my staple beauty products

10.magazine: anything that i see i read

11.cookie: subway's choco chip cookies! so chewy!

12.ice-cream: cookies and cream, blizzard's mudpie

13.chocolate: toblerone, chocettes and ferrero's are my top choice

14.junk food: love nova, clover chips, tortillos, doritos and ruffles

15.restaurant: chilis, banana leaf, yellow cab, taco bell (burritos, burritos!)

16.month/s: december (best month ever!)

17.number: 13 and 14

18.day: as long as its my rest day, then i love that day

19.fast food joint: kfc and mcdonald's

20.t.v.show: amazing race, survivor series, im beginning to like tru calling, mulawin

21.car: always wanted to have a rav 4.

22.comedian: ben stiller

23.subject: history

24.radio station: jam 88.3

25.occasion: christmas and new year

26.cartoon character: spongebob (rather, spandsbab, spandsbab!)

27.fashion designer: not brand conscious and dont care who designs clothes, as long as they look nice and comfy, then they're okay

28.clothing store: people are people

29.pet: no pets. i want to have a pet cow though. =)

30.athlete: i liked yevgeny kafelnikov when i was in highschool. he's a tennis player. but i liked him more for his looks than his tennis skills.

31.sport: basketball!

32.sports theme: theme? or team? dont get this.

33.jeans: jeans at ppl are ppl fit me perfectly

34.season: summer! i love the sun sun sun!

35.hobby/ies: reading books, listening to music, blogging, watching movies

36.accessory: anything cute and fancy

37.fruit: strawberry, banana, kiwi

38.vacation spot: baguio and puerto galera, i want to go to BOHOL!

39.drinK: strawberry milkshake, lemonade, anything light

40.food: currentlyl craving for panna cotta, pesto, pizza!

41.hang-out: where i hang out? at home? podium (2nd home of all BDO employees)

42.dessert: panna cotta,ice cream and crepes

43.movie: LOTR!, big fish, amelie, collateral, underworld...etc...sobrang dami!

44.cable channel: im the only person on earth who does not have cable yet

45.website: any blog, as long as its interesting

46.toothpaste: colgate

47.cake: coffee crunch ng red ribbon, homemade honey cake that u can get at san lorenzo vill.

48.expression: when i asked my friend what my usual expression is, my friend answered..."u look ugly"

49.attire: jeans, shirt, rubber shoes

50.place: i dream of going to bohol! i dream of living by the beach!


thanks for this shadowlane!

Panna Cotta!

I've been craving for this dessert for 2 days already. I have no idea where to get it (there's a resto in Tagaytay that sells it but I cant possibly go all the way there just for that) so here's the recipe, maybe I can actually prepare it and finally have a taste of it!

I want Panna Cotta!

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Panna Cotta al Caffe (serves 2)

4 oz/120 ml very strong espresso or coffee
8 oz/240 ml heavy (double) cream
2 oz/60 g sugar
1 envelope/(1 teaspoon/7 g) unflavored powdered gelatin

Pour half of the cream into a saucepan, add the sugar and espresso, and heat almost to a boil. Remove from heat and sprinkle gelatin on top. Stir until the gelatin dissolves and let cool to room temperature, stirring occasionally.

Whip remaining cream into soft peaks. Gently fold the whipped cream into the gelatin mixture. Pour the cream into 2 individual ring or round molds and refrigerate for about 3 hours.

To serve, remove panna cotta from moldsonto serving plate, decorate with whippedcream and whole coffee beans or a sprinklingof ground coffee.

Sabik sa Pagbabago

Nagkaroon na ba ng pagkakataong bigla mo na lang gusto magkaroon ng malaking pagbabago sa iyong buhay?

Ganyan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Parang may maliit na tinig sa ulo at damdamin ko na tila'y humihiling na baguhin ko naman ang pag-ihip ng hangin sa tinatahak kong daan. Hindi naman sa nagsasawa na ako. Nasa estado lamang siguro ako na pawang nalubos ko na ang mga bagay bagay at may panibagong daan na namang gustong lakbayin. Sa tingin ko'y handa na ako sa pagbabagong ito bagama't hindi ko pa ito napagnilayan ng husto. Sa katunayan, mukang ikagagalak ko pa nga ito.

Marahil mahirap unawain kung ano nga ba ang nais kong ipahayag. Sa ngayon, hindi pa siguro panahon na ito'y mailantad ngunit sa ngayon, ito ang tila umuukilkil sa aking isip at damdamin kaya't heto sya ngayon...isinusulat ko sa sisidlan ng aking buhay.

Amazing Race 7 Na!

Amazing Race 7 na!

And as expected, todo adrenalin rush especially with Rob and Amber as part of the contenders. They ended up in 3rd place for the first pit stop in Peru.

At first, I was really excited to watch these two cuz Survivor is soo much different compared to Amazing Race pero habang nanonood ako, may new favorites na ako, si Alex and Lynn, the gay couple! Ang cute cute nila. Not like Reiken and Chip (the other gay couple who won in one of the Amazing Race season, i forget which one), they're both soooo gay and its soo nice to just watch them. They both remind me of Sean Hayes of Will and Grace.

I cant wait for next week. I hope they dont get eliminated soon.

I Command You to Go to Work!

Ikatlong araw ng absent si Jenny. In fairness, nami-miss ko ang piklat na babaitang ito.

Kahapon na ata ang isa sa mga pinakaboring na araw ng buhay ko. Wala halos magawa sa office. Panakanaka lamang ang pagpasok ng mga tawag at lahat ng seatmates ko ay walang pasok. Wala si Sasa, wala si Jenny at wala si Bhea. Tahimik. Sobrang tahimik. Nakatapos pa nga akong magbasa ng isang buong libro...take note...habang nasa trabaho. Sumasagot pa ako ng telepono nyan ha. Partida.

Malungkot pag walang kausap. Kahit walang ginagawa, nakakapagod pa rin.

Pumasok ka na Maria Fatima!

On Personal Legends and Life

Sinimulan kong magbasa ng The Alchemist na isinulat ni Paolo Coehlo noong isang linggo. Pagkatapos ng ilang araw, natapos ko rin. Nabasa ko na yung Veronika Decides to Die at By the River Piedra... pero hindi ko pa nabasa ang ultimate at "beloved book" niya til now. Hindi ko pa tapos pero it has stirred my curiosity and has started making me think about a lot of things...especially about finding one's own Personal Legend.

Ano nga ba ang Personal Legend? Sabi ni Coehlo, ang bawat nilalang ay may kanya kanyang Personal Legend. Tinitukoy nito ang isang bagay na pinakananais mo na makamit sa iyong buhay. Para sa pangunahing tauhan na si Santiago, ang makapaglakbay at mahanap ang kanyang kayamanan ang kanyang Personal Legend. Matagal kong pinilit inisip kung ano ang aking Personal Legend. Makapaglakbay din ba? Mabasa ang lahat ng libro ng gusto kong basahin? Makasama panghabambuhay ang aking pinakamamahal? Inisip ko ng inisip at ngayong isinusulat ko ito...pakiwari ko'y alam ko na ang sagot.

Ang mabuhay ng simple at tahimik. Yan ang aking pinakananais na makamit sa aking buhay. I never dreamed of greatness. I never wanted riches. Ang magkaroon lamang ng sapat ang tunay na magpapaligaya sa akin. Having too much brings complications. I never want complications.

"Maktub". It has been written. Yan ang kadalasang isambit sa libro. Kumbaga, naisulat o naitakda na ang mga bagay sa iyong buhay. Parang mahirap paniwalaan no?

Hindi ako kailanman naniwala na may mga bagay sa mundong ito na sadyang itinadhana sa isang tao. Para sa akin, kung sino at anuman ang iyong makasalubong sa paglalakbay mo sa iyong buhay, sadyang pagkakataon lamang ito. Magbubunga at magyayabong lamang ang pagtatapo at pagsasamahan at makakamit ang mga ninanais kung ito ay iyong paghihirapan. Kahit na ba itinadhana sa iyo ang isang bagay, kung hindi ka kikilos upang ito ay makamit, sadyang hindi mo ito matatamo.

Sadyang maraming tao ang pilit umiintindi sa buhay. Marami na ang naisulat upang bigyang liwanag ang mga misteryo nito. Ngunit sa dinami dami ng naigugol na panahon para intindihin ito, tuloy pa ring hindi nasasagot ang maraming katanungan ng tao ukol sa kanyang buhay. Marami pa rin ang nangangapa sa bawat paghakbang niya sa daang kanyang tinatahak. Kung sa bagay, ano pa nga ba ang ikagaganda ng buhay kung alam mo na ang lahat ukol rito? Ano pa ang saysay kung wala na ang misteryo?

Panahon ng Takot at Pangamba

Ganito pala ang pakiramdam kapag may namumuong takot sa iyong puso't isipan.

Nagiging balisa't kung ano ano ang naiisip. Nanghihina kasabay panlalamig ng mga kamay. Mahirap matakot sa hindi mo alam. Hindi mo tanto kung ano ang iyong haharapin at kung paano ito paglalabanan or malalampasan.

Talagang darating ang isang araw na magbabago ang iyong mga pananaw sa buhay. Gagawa ka ng desisyong hindi mo akalaing magagawa mo. Dapat ay handa ka sa kung ano mang kahihinatnan nito. Madaling sabihin. Sigurado akong mahirap pa ring tanggapin sa unang pagkakataong magkatotoo ang iyong kinatatakutan.

Ngunit kung sa harap ng takot at pangamba'y may kadamay ka, sigurong mahaharap ang unos. Kung ang sumpaa'y tapat at totoo, pawang malalampasan ang takot.

Failed Attempt

Pinilit kong ibahin ang template ng aking blog.

Blogger with no knowledge on HTML and Javascript has made several attempts but to no avail.

Sinubukan kong lagyan ng background pic yung mismong background. Walang nangyari. Sinunod ko naman yung instructions pero ayaw pa rin. Sinubukan kong ibahin yung color scheme ng buong blog ko. Okay na sana nung simula (different shades of gray pa naman sana yung effect) pero nung inaayos ko na yung profile box ko, wala, pumalpak na. Back to my old theme ulit tuloy ako.

Kung may pera lang ako, gusto ko sanang magInformatics para makapag-aral ng HTML at web design. Hmmm... Dapat ko ata itong isama to sa wish list ko.

Inaantok ako pero di pa pwede matulog. Naiinip ako kaya blog na lang ang pinagtritripan ko. Malungkot ako pero di naman pwede magmukmok.

Just let me blog away all my worries

Cool Nerd

Salamat Maranatha para sa link.

Matagal ko ng gustong malaman kung nerdy nga ba ako. Mukha kasi akong nerd pero hindi naman ako genius. Mukha kasi akong nerd pero hindi naman ako nagtapos na summa cum laude. Mukha akong nerdy pero taga sagot lang naman ako ng telepono.

Pero ayon nga sa resulta...lightly nerdy daw ako. Tama ang hinala ko. Tumpak ang resulta. Tama lang ang timpla ko. Nerdy pero cool.

Isa akong cool nerd. Yebah!

Sumamo sa Panahon ng Paghihikahos

7 araw.
8 pirasong 20 peso bill.
4 na pirasang 100 peso bill.
Mangilan ngilang barya.

Yan na lang ang natitira kong pera. Sa loob ng pitong araw, kailangan ko yang mapagkasya.

Ang iilan kong kaibigan ay malapit ng mawala kapag hindi pa ako nagpakita sa kanila. Dinner, merienda, pizza sa bahay. Lahat yan, kakambal ay pag gasta. Wala akong panggasta. Wag sana ako mawalan ng mga kaibigan.

Konting pag-unawa ang hiling ko sa inyo. Naghihikahos ako, nakakahiya mang aminin.

Nag-iinarte

Baket ba may mga araw na parang gusto ko lang mag-inarte at magpaka o.a.?

Today is definitely one of those days.

Sa mga araw tulad nito, para bang nawawala ako sa katinuan at wisyo. Mahirap maintindihan at mahirap pakibagayan. Nagpapahard to get. Nagpapacute. Baka raw kasi malapit na ang aking buwanang dalaw. Haha. Baka nga.

Hindi ko alam kung baket ako nagkakaganito. Siguro ay kulang lang ako sa pansin. Baka may gusto lang akong sabihin na hindi masabi. Baka may nararamdaman na hindi maipahiwatig. Ano pa man ang dahilan, hindi ko ata mapipigilang mag-inarte ngayon.

Malamang ay nakakairita ito para sa ilang taong makakahalubilo ko ngayon. Pasensya na. Sana'y mapagbigyan na lang ninyo ako. Minsan lang naman ito at hindi naman ako siguro gagawa ng bagay na maaaring ikagalit ng ninuman. Konting kiliti lang naman ito. Pampaanghang sa aking pagkatao. Kung matatanggap mo akong ganito, salamat. Tunay kang kaibigan.

Character Is Your Destiny

Character is your destiny.

Eto yung topic ng mga DJs habang nakikinig ako sa radyo papasok ng opisina kaninang umaga. Noong unang tinanong nung isang DJ yung kasama niya kung naniniwala siya rito, walang masabi yung isang DJ. Kapareho ko, mukang hindi rin ata niya alam ang ibig sabihin nito. Hindi natapos ang usapan ng dalawa. Malamang ay natunugan ng isa na hindi naintindihan yung kanyang sinabi kaya pinaliwanag niya ang ibig sabihin nito.

Eto pa nga ang ginamit niyang halimbawa.

"Kung makakita ka ng isang libong piso sa sahig...pupulutin mo ba ito at ibubulsa o ibabalik sa may-ari. Walang ibang nakakita. Ikaw lang. Kung ano man daw ang maging desisyon mo (kung ibabalik mo ito o hindi), sa oras na iyon matatanto mo at ng iyong Lumikha ang iyong pagkatao kasabay ng pagtanto mo sa iyong tadhana." (syempre, sa salitang ingles niya ito sinambit)

Pagkatapos maipaliwanag, napaisip ako kung nagkaroon na ba ako ng pagkakataong masubukan upang malaman ang uri at katatagan ng aking katauhan. Marami na akong mga naharap na sitwasyon at pagsubok ngunit sa aking pakiwari ay hindi ko pa natatanto ang tunay at nag-iisang pagsubok na susukat sa aking tunay na katauhan. Sana'y sa pagdating nito'y hindi ako masawi sa pagkakakilala ko sa aking sarili. Naniniwala akong itinadhana ako ng Lumikha na maging isang ganap na nilalang na may tatag ng loob at buo ang prinsipyo. Sana'y sa pagdating ng aking pagsubok ay ganap kong maisabuhay ang inaakala kong itinadhana sa akin.

Ayan!

Hmm. Naririnig ko na naman yung comment na "Tumataba ka!".

Matagal tagal na panahon ko nang hindi yan naririnig. Dati, bukambibig yan ng mga tao sa Unionbank at sa Perpetual (noong panahong nagpapaka nars pa ako). Sa sobrang rindi ko sa paulit ulit na hirit na yan, sinimulan ko ang aking crash diet. Ayoko na kasing marinig pa na masabihan ako ng "Tumataba ka".

Pero eto na naman tayo, nagsisimula na naman syang umalingawngaw sa utak ko. Ayoko pa rin syang naririnig.

Bukas, diet na ulit. The world wide web is my witness.

Worried Sick Part 2

Tapos na magkasakit si Mama. Tapos na rin magkasakit si Jenny.

Si Miguel naman ngayon ang inaapoy ng lagnat at sinisipon pa. Lahat na lang ng tao ay nagkakasakit. Nakakainis.

Bad weather kaya? Siguro. Uso lang kaya ang saket? Pwede rin. Stress sa trabaho? Definitely.

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang pwede kong gawin sa tuwing may kaibigan or mahal ako sa buhay na nagkakasakit. Nasa katauhan ko kasi ang maging parang nanay. Madali akong mag-alala. Wala akong tigil sa pagpapaalala. Puro salita pero wala naman akong magawa. Frustrating.

Rinding rindi

Malamang ay karma na nga ito para sa lahat ng kasamaang ginawa ko sa buhay ko.

Rinding rindi na ako. Konti na lang ay dudugo na ang tenga ko.

Hindi sya tumitigil magsalita. Walang katapusang kwento tungkol sa mga bagay na walang katuturan sa buhay ko.

Tulungan ninyo ako.

Quarter Life Crisis - I am going throught it!

Blogger Abril sent this to us via email. I can totally relate to it so Im blogging it in the hope that other 20 something people would be able to read this. I really dont know if it will help but I guess its a relief to know that Im not alone in how I feel.

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They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laughand cry with the greatest force of your life.

You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

Worried Sick...

Wala akong pasok ngayon pero talaga namang stressed out ako today.

My mama has been sick since Sunday. Mukang nahawaan siya ng isa kong tiyahin. Hindi kami mga sakiting tao pero mukang pamatay ang virus na dala ng tita ko kaya nagkasakit agad si mama. Umuwi siya kaagad galing Batangas at inaapoy na ng lagnat simula pa noong Linggo. Kahapon, pag-uwi ko, may lagnat pa rin sya. Pinainom namin sya ng Tuseran Forte. Kaninang alas kwatro, ginising niya ako dahil masama ata ang pakiramdam nya. Pagtingin ko sa temperatura niya, grabe, 39.3. Talaga namang nagpanic ako dahil hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. Walang nakakatanda sa bahay noong mga oras na yun kundi ako. Pinunasan ko sya, super lamig na tubig ang ginamit ko pero napababa ko lang yung lagnat nya to 38.5. Lalo lang akong nagpanic dahil paggising ko, bumalik sa 39.6. Buti na lang, noong mga oras na yun, dumating na ang pinsan ko. Dinala namin sya sa isang clinic (dahil hindi ko afford ang private hospital) malapit sa aming sabdivision. Niresetahan siya ng paracetamol at ambroxol. Yung biogesic (paracetamol yun), dapat pala, 2 ang ipainom sa kanya. Dalawang tig 500mg, to be taken every 4 hours. Una syang uminom kaninag alas dose ng tanghali. Kabababa ko lang ngayon at guess what, 37.5 na ang temperature nya. Nakahinga na ako ng malalim. Mabisa pala yung nireseta ng doctor. Sulit na kahit na sa maliit na clinic lang kami pumunta. Makakahinga na ako ng maluwag.

Sana ay tuloy tuloy na ang paggaling niya.

My K700i

If Jenny has a 6230, I, on the other hand, have a Sony Ericsson K700i. Switching to Ericsson after being a Nokia user all my life isn't so bad after all. I actually enjoy using the phone now. Just like Jenny's phone, its as powerful despite being just a small phone. To hell with memory cards, my phone is packed with 41MB internal memory so there really isnt any need for more. I've had this phone for two weeks now and I love it. Thank you SSS and Unionbank for making great things possible. Hehe.

Oras ng yabangan ngayon. Nagpapatalbugan kami ng Jenny ng cellphone. I cant wait for Mako to post her phone's photo. Magmimistulan kaming ipot after she does that.

Relax and Unwind

Nagkaroon ako ng pagkakataon na makapagpahinga pagkatapos ng isang napakahabang linggo. Sabi nga ng tita ko, "relax and unwind". That's exactly what we did.

Jenny, Miguel and I went home to Batangas yesterday. For Jenny who has been my friend for 15 years already, it was her first time to see the place where I grew up in before I transferred to Assumption back in 1990. For Shishi, it was a chance for him to meet up my grandmother and my aunt and uncle. It was a chance for him to know me even more since it is another facet of my life which I've wanted him to see so that he could know me even better.

He was feeling nervous about meeting my family. I was excited and also a bit nervous for him. We were worried that he'd be grilled. Fortunately, it wasnt as bad as we expected. All in all, I'd like to think that we all enjoyed and had a wonderful day. We had the chance to just sit by the balcony and talk and laugh and take pictures. The weather was also perfect.

Its a nice feeling when you get to share a part of yourself with someone bit by bit. Having Miguel come to Batangas with me was like sharing a very big part of who I am and I'd like to believe that I've made him know the whole me after that. Having someone know and see where you grew up in is indeed a very import factor for that person to know you better.

Im looking forward to another visit to Batangas, hopefully, I get to bring more of my friends like Mako, Jen and Mags. I'm sure they'll appreciate the quiet time. Its refreshing to the soul. Its healthy for the mind.

Random Thoughts

Random thoughts -- inspired by Mako's recent blog.

> Late ako ngayong araw na ito. 40 minutes akong late. Last week, twice akong 30 minutes late. I wonder what HR will do to me? Cant wait to get my memo. Makes me look forward to werk even more. Yaay.

> Just ate Mcdo's Big Breakfast Meal. Masarap pala siya in fairness. I never ever tried it out before. Talk about being a loser.

> Im 25 years old. Pretty young. Yuppie. But everyday, all I want to do is to just retire. Must I really wait 'til I'm 60?! Too bad Im not rich. I have no choice but to slave away til Im old and gray. That sucks. Pbbbbth.

> I hate it when I get disappointed. I cant hide it. I was looking forward to you coming along with us. Oh well. As you said, its too far. Cant do anything. Too bad.

> Im feeling very antisocial today. I want to go home already. I dont like this day. I dont feel like doing anything. I dont feel like talking to anyone. I just want to stay at home, lie down on my own bed, listen to my new fake cds and just stare at the ceiling.

> Okay. Im done ranting. Goodbye.

Sarbey Mula Sa Aking Editor

Ako ay si ... Mitchvee
Sabi nila ... pumayat raw ako! (sa mga matagal ng hindi nakakita sken, ikaw yun maranatha, oo, tumaba ako, as in, at pumayat ulit!)
Sabi ko naman ... Buti naman. Mahirap magpapayat no!
Ang huli kong binili ay ... French toast sa kantina dito sa opisina
Ang huli kong kinain ay ... Yung French toast na binili ko
Ang cellphone ko ay ... isang k700i (at ngayon ay lubog na ako sa utang sa credit card)
Ang huling nag misscall sa fone ko ay si ... Ate Laila (nagpapabili kasi sya ng Sun prepaid sim)
Ang huling nag text sa kin ay si ...Ate Laila (kinukulit ako na bumili ng sun prepaid sim)
Nagising ako kaninang ... 530AM, ginising ako ni Payatot
Pagkagising ko ... una kong narinig ang boses ni Payatot, bedroom voice pa. Papa!
Ako ay nasa ... impiyerno (aka opis)
Ang kulay ng suot ko ngaun ay ... asul na uniporme ng BDO na mukang uniporme ng mga taga SM.
Ang kulay ng bed sheet ko ngayon ay ... dilaw
Naiinis ako sa ... SSS loan ko
Natutuwa naman ako sa ... sarbey na ito
Namimiss ko na ... magbadminton, maglaro ng sims at heroes of might and magic
Hindi ko naman namimiss ... si bossing
Huli akong uminom ... ng tubig ni jenny (parang di maganda pakinggan)
Ang ininom namin nun ay... tubig nga
Kasama ko nun yung ... babaitang pangalan ay jenny nga
Ang oras ngayon ay ... 4:11pm, 49mins na lang uwian na!
Ang nag send sakin ng survey na to ay ... ninakaw ko lang sa blog ni maranatha
Nagsasagot ako nito kasi ... wala akong magawa at gusto ko lubusin ang paggamit ng internet sa opisina para naman makabawi ako sa lahat ng pahirap na dulot nito
Huli akong umiyak nung ... ewan...2 linggo na ata ang nakakalipas
Pinaiyak ako ng ... boss ko
Huli naman akong tumawa nung ...1 millisecond ago. lagi naman akong tumatawa kahit walang nakakatawa e.
Pinatawa naman ako ni ...sasing
Crush ko si ... Payatot
Crush naman ako ni ...aba, malay. kung sino man ang mahilig sa mukang exotic, yun na siguro may crush sken
Pero mahal ko si ...Payatot
Mahal naman ako ni ...Payatot (mutual yan mga repapips!)
Ang kantang pinakikinggan ko ngayon ay ...wala
Gusto kong ...magpunta ng Bohol at magbakasyon kasama ni Payatot
Gusto ko ng matapos tong survey na to kasi ...malapit na maguwian
Hindi ko na alam kung pano tatapusin tong survey kaya ... ewan. tapos na naman a. hmm.

Unang Taon Ng Sisidlan

Matagal na panahon na akong hindi nakakapagsulat sa wikang aking mas unang minahal at mas nakasanayan. Bigla ko na lamang naalala na ng una kong binuo ang Sisidlan, ang aking nais ay maitampok ang aking mga saloobin sa wikang Tagalog. Tama lamang na ngayong isang taon na ang aking Sisidlan, na makapagsulat akong muli sa wikang isinisigaw ng aking dugo at isipan.

Nagbalik tanaw ako at muling binasa ang mga dati kong naisulat. Nakakatuwang mabasa muli at alalahanin ang aking mga pinagdaanan. Nakakaaliw makita ang mga pagbabagong nangyari sa aking buhay na aking namalas sa bawat kwentong aking nailahad.

Ang buhay talaga ng isang tao kahit na gaano pang kapayak ay sadyang interesante pa rin. Yan ang aking masasabi base sa iba't ibang mga blog na aking nadaanan, binasa't ninamnam sa loob ng isang taon. Merong mga kwentong sadyang nakakatawa. Meron din namang nakakalungkot. At mas lalong merong mga kwentong sadyang magbubukas sa iyong mata sa mga katotohanang ipinupukol ng buhay sa ibang tao maliban sa'yo.

Masaya ako at aking natutunang ipunin ang kwento ng aking buhay sa aking sisidlan. Maluwag pa't marami pang maaaring ilagay na alaala rito kaya't puspusan ang aking pakikipagsapalaran sa buhay upang mailakip ang bawat kwento at baunin sa aking sisidlan.

Thinking Bad Thoughts is...Bad.

Never ever bother yourself with things that you're not supposed to think of in the first place if you dont want things to screw up. This is what I've been repeating over and over to myself for the nth time. Its definitely not healthy because it will only turn you more and more paranoid and will just make things turn out bad.

I was never like this before. I wonder why Im suddenly so scared of so many things now. He asked me why Im thinking these things last night. He asked me if how he's been acting is making me think of these things. I don't know. He asked if I was feeling insecure. Maybe. What Im sure of is that Im just scared of losing him. Maybe the fear just seems stronger now and seems to loom more because I already experienced losing someone. Way back then, the thought of losing someone never ever entered my mind because I felt so secure with what we had. It seemed like we were going to be together forever because we never ever had any major problems. In the end, what we had did not last.

I'm glad that things turned out the way that it has now but the fear of losing someone that you love so much just seems more real now because I know that this can happen, it does happen. I still need to learn to deal with this fear. Soon. I dont want to screw up. What I have is too good for me to screw it all up.

Trust is not an issue. I do trust him and do believe him. I just need to stop thinking too much. Must not be afraid.

I Am Inspired

People, your life is not complete and if you have not read chona's blog. She has the funnniest, wackiest blog in the whole entire world! I want every Filipino in the world to read her blog cuz its super funny! I dont know if she's just a poser or if she's just pretending to be a maid but it doesnt matter, her adventures and quirks just make me forget about all the crappy stuff that i need to think about.

Check this out Chona's blog! Go to http://chona.blogspot.com

Now!

Sick to the Core

I feel sick. My mouth feels funny. My tooth and gums are throbbing. My head feels like its about to pop. I feel cold all over. Im hungry but its soo hard to eat because my throat is bothering me. To top it all, Im at the office, still answering calls. What a way to ease urself. I just want to go home and rest. Too bad I cant go home yet...I still have a root canal session with my dentist. Life sucks.

Jenny And Mitch's Official Dictionary

Here is a list of all the words that we've coined and used over the years (a friendship that has lasted for almost 14 years already) - - Oh dear God, has it been that long?!? Kill me now!

1. Bu! Jidosya - The very first word of Mitch and Jenny. The Original Word. Origin: The famous hanky that has Bu Jidosyas written all over it.

2. Ligabu - virgin

3. Mimi - origin: a certain boy with initials M.R. Meaning 1: mimiyak et al. Meaning2: Emmylou Gaite; Spin off: Mimimimi - Origin: Ate Laila, while looking out the window, Mits and Jenny ask her a question, her response - - 'Mimimimi'.

4. Yode - An expression that signifies contentment.

5. Bisfreni - Word of affection towards bestfriend (and bestfriend alone); constantly used as cellphone name but changed occassionaly to other weird names due to unexpected and stupid circumstances. (Eg. Piklat, Blegy, Mangkeh)

6. Icky - Expresson of disgust; Spinoff: Ickybuns - pertains to Mitch's little dirty secret.

7. Mingming - Usually used to describe little things...little haribol things; Meaning 2: Word of greeting; Meaning3: Term of endearment for thin boyfriends

8. Lili - Originally used to describe Sir Ian's manliness.

9. Blegy - Origin: Unknown. Used by Mitch to call Jenny. May pertain to something big and fat.
10. Pikpik - A word of greeting usually used when in a good mood; also used to call a girl's privates.

11. Enen - a mistake (by Jenny)

12. Nogneg - used to describe the "other one"

13. Piklat - originally an icky term used by Jenny. We cannot remember why. It is now a term that describes something thats kawawa, something thats small, something sablay, something engot.

14. Tekla - baduy, jologs. A description for a person who dresses funny.

15. "Kamukha mo si Jenssen" - a phrase that leads to an argument.

16. "You are Jenssen" - statement used by the winner of the argument stated above.

17. Bu! - an expresson or sound used to horrify one another

18. Du! - Originally created out of boredom. Now pertains to Mitch's moon faced nephew.

19. Plikypikpik - The name of our upcoming album, to be released when both Mitch and Jenny are dead.

20. Bits! - an expression of frustration towards Bisfreni and other friends

21. Tif! - what Jenny calls Mitch when Mitch steals something from her (which I never do!)

22. Ne - another mistake

23. No! - difficult to describe how Mitch and Jenny pronounces it but its how we pronounce 'No'

My Type of Intelligence

So, this is my type of intelligence. Well, that figures...

How nerdy.

Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence

You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

Getaway

I definitely need a break. A very long one. Feeling like you always want to be absent every single day is a sure sign that life at work is crappy. That's how I've been feeling since day 1 of January. I want to get away from all the hustle and bustle of office work. I don't want to hear a single complaint. I don't want to hear the ringing of a lucent phone. I don't want to see applix or any of the other system that we're using at work.

I want to see trees. I want to lie down on fine white sand. I want to dip my feet and feel the tickle of seawater. I want to feel the sun all over my skin.

Aloha Beach in Bohol

The Majestic Chocolate Hills

Everything around me feels trivial. Unreal. Unnecessary. Too much of life can suffocate a person. I've always wanted things simple. Let me have my freedom. Let me have my peace.

Bothered

There are just some boxes that are not meant to be opened.

Some things are better left unsaid. I've always been the type of person who would rather not find out about something and be left in the dark about a certain issue than know things and forever be bothered about them. I know that its a dumb idea but I'd rather have my peace of mind. That all I've ever wanted in the first place. I like things kept simple. I hate complications.


I know I can't be like this forever but I cant help but complain (complaining keeps me sane, I swear). I need to get used to things like this cuz life has harsher things in store for me. I guess I eventually will but for the mean time, I choose to just keep quiet. Too many watchful eyes. Too many people affected. Mitch definitely bothered.

Things that I stumble upon...

I've been bloghopping for the past few days and I've stumbled upon a number of interesting blogs and entries but when I read joacs' entry in his blog, I just had to post it too so that the people I know could read it too. Its crazy. People think up with the weirdest things. Read on.

Things that make you go, "Ha?"

1. You're going to the moon! What did you forget to pack?
2. What would you wear for camouflage if you were hiding in a gingerbread house?
3. Well, maybe they don't need them, but don't you think that some fish might like a bicycle?
4. In the dream where you show up to school naked, why do you never go swimming?
5. If your whole body were a hot air balloon, would you stop eating spicy food?
6. Try writing your name with your other hand. Where was that person raised?
7. What's the best time you've ever had licking stamps?
8. Lionesses have no manes. How do they know when they've grown up?
9. You've been invited to a fancy ball but the only thing you have to wear is an orange wooly jumper. What shoes do you wear?
10. Which do you prefer and why: whittling with soap or whistling with wood?
11. If there's no I in team, why is there meat?
12. What was the stage name of your favorite actress before she was born?
13. Aren't papier mache cuts the worst?
14. Why does the color blue mean raspberry-flavored?
15. Which is more important to you and why: flexibility or expandability?
16. What did you dream when you ate a spider while sleeping?
17. You can punch a hole in an apple using a straw. How do you think that makes your milkshake feel?
18. Compose the lyrics to a new national anthem that features an animal sound at least once:
19. The first time you had your shoes taken off - how surprised were you to see that you still had toes?
20. Why does the taste of pennies remind you of losing a tooth?
21. Try writing your name with your other hand. Where was that person raised?
22. When you've got water stuck in your ear, how do you get it out?
23. You've written a hit musical! How will you avoid having fame go to your head?
24. You forgot your mom's birthday! What can you make out of super glue and olive pits?
25. How tall would you be if you had never cut your fingernails?
26. The hair from your last haircut ... what would it say about your new style?
27. Radio wire is often used to make bird nests. What station do they listen to?
28. Create a tagline for a new line of plastic bedsheets.
29. You've rented a sky-writer to propose to your significant other, but it's completely overcast. What will you do?
30. Chicken monkey shoes?
31. Come up with some possible band names for your group that features a washboard and a styrofoam tuba.
32. The wicked backspin caught you off guard. How will you play it off without losing your footing?
33. Which is more important to you and why: flexibility or expandability?
34. That can't really be a fish you're standing on, can it?
35. You've just inherited a manufacturing plant that specializes in plastics. What are you going to make?
36. You're trapped in a well with a goat and a slinky. Describe how you will escape.
37. If you drive on a parkway why don't they make the whole plane out of that?
38. Your bow is not broken but you've run out of arrows. How can you fake being a bard?
39. Whoops! Your tongue is now a magnet. Whatever will you use for silverware?
40. What kind of tape is best for creating a sculpture?
41. All of the phone numbers have fallen out of your address book. Whose number do you look for first and why?
42. Try making up the rules to a game where you tie knots in a yo-yo string just to see if you can get them out:
43. You're in the grocery store with a broken cart. How will you ever be that hungry?
44. You can punch a hole in an apple using a straw. How do you think that makes your milkshake feel?
45. Sponges and tongues are frequently misspelled. Is it because both are thirsty?
46. What would you name your ballet inspired by the sight of children leaping through a garden sprinkler?
47. The love potion you made tastes terrible. How will you drink it?
48. Your people want to make a statue in your honor. What will it be made out of and what victory will it commemorate?
49. How do you pronounce the 'g' in bologna?
50. If mud is dirt plus water, what is clay?
51. You can whistle and steam can whistle, so why do you sing in the shower?
52. Your pajamas have duckies on them. Why did you switch from choo-choos?
53. You've been entered in a shadow puppet contest. What's your best pose?

A Little Nudge

I have not had the time to blog at all. I have not had a decent entry in ages. Ever since January started, I write in short sentences...phrases. Its pathetic actually. I never liked the times when I never ever get to blog and write something of substance. It only means one thing actually. Im having a really crappy day. Most of my recent blogs are of no substance so its fairly safe to say that I've definitely been having crappy days. However, I find no more reason writing down all the bad things that have been happening to me for the past few days. Instead, I have decided to immerse myself in positive energy, positive thoughts and positive vibes. It is pointless to actually bawl and whine and complain about problems. It does not help at all. Well, it does relieve you if you do bawl and whine and complain maybe for a sec but after that, let it all go and just allow yourself to smile. Im lucky enough to have someone who knows exactly how to do that and Im even luckier to have someone who lets the positive energy in him emmanate and give me a little nudge in the back so that I can smile as well.

Whoopee 2

I really am on a roll.

4th time in the Principal's Office.

Yaay.

Whoopee.

I've been called to the principal's office thrice in a span of 6 days.

I'm on a roll.

Yaaay.

Bukas...

Kung noo'y ang alam lamang tingna'y nakaraan at kasalukuyan...ngayon ay natuto na rin akong sulyapin ang hinaharap. Kung noo'y hindi naiisip ang maaaring mangyari, ngayo'y hinahayaan paglaruin ang isip at namnamin ang maaring makasama panghabambuhay.

Reality Bites Hard

Reality really does bite hard.

I've been in dreamland for almost two months and finally, reality has caught up with me. Everything seems so real now. Moves are so calculated. Cannot really express myself the way that I would want to or normally would do since it seems like Im always being watched. I knew that this day would come and I thought that I was going to be prepared for it but Im still stunned now that it has finally bitten. It has definitely not sunk in. I know I should give it time though, it has only been like two days and I guess Im still adjusting to everything and everyone but I really dont like the way I've been feeling. I guess that's why Im blogging away so that at least I could release some of the things running through my mind now.

Hay Buhay

Kapagod. Thats all I can say.

Back in the Day Shift

Here we go!

As expected, bumabaha ang calls. Whats new? I was expecting this. Pero in fairness, shocking pa din. Ang dami. Non stop queuing.

The more I miss GY.

I miss Miguel too.